This time of year is always my favorite. I love the cooler weather, comfy clothes and leaves changing color. I have been in a bit of a funk the last few months and learned that a very small percentage of people, about 5 %, actually get seasonal depression during the summer. I think I may be one of those people. Don't get me wrong, I find my fun but for the most part, I hate the heat. So much so that I will avoid outdoor activities because of it. Which then leads to unhealthy habits, lack of sunlight and depression.
Today I started this season of fall with a blissful yoga workshop. It was just what I needed to get out of a funk and get back on the right track. In class we focused on our crown shakra. ( I don't know all the things yet but thats what they said). We embraced our love, safety and comfort together in class. We used affirmations such as "I am worthy, I am divine, I am loved." I won't lie, I struggled with this and it brought tears to my eyes. I am really struggling with my self worth right now. What makes me so important or worth loving? I think I have gotten to a place where I don't know who I am or what I want. That is a really challenging place to be.
In class, I learned the value of self-affirmations. I learned that I could feel safe around strangers because I knew we were all there for the same reason. I felt acceptance and understanding. And for two whole hours, I didn't worry about what I looked like or what anyone thought about me. Then it hit me, these are my people. The instructors make you feel like the only one in the room. They make you feel so important, pampered and loved. Yoga has become an outlet for me that I never knew existed for someone like me. I came to the realization that I need to add it more into my life. I need to keep doing things that make me feel happy, safe and loved. That is where I am going to find my happiness again.
I hope I can inspire someone else to try this form of self care and acceptance. If you have never tried yoga or a yoga workshop before, I highly recommend you try it. Go in with an open mind. You just may find a whole new way of thinking.
Let me just leave you with this affirmation they said to us today:
"I am connected to everything, and everything is connected to me. I am divinely protected snd divinely guided by the light within me. I release doubt and welcome faith. I love and accept myself."
